exactly gow i feel

Sick with myself, but i've got no one else,
so i give it to myself it's the only thing that helps
it's the same thing this pain thing that keeps me from sleeping
and screaming that god i must be motha fucking dreaming
and i can rest in peace and atleast cease to be
cease to see those things in me that make me wanna cease to breath
and ceased to need and ceased to feed, sickness thats in me
this is all that I can be, i can't breath as I bleed
I just wanna say good bye, Dissappear with no one knowing
I dont wanna live this lie, smiling to the world unknowing
I dont want you to try, you've done enough to keep me going
i'll be fine, I'll be fine, i'll be fine for the very last time

yOuR gHOst

If I walk down this hallway
Tonight, it's too quiet
So I pad through the dark
And call you on the phone
Push your old numbers
And let your house ring
Till I wake YOUR GHOST

Let him walk down your hallway
It's too quiet
Slide down your receiver
Sprint across the wire
Follow my number
Slide into my hand

It's the blaze across my nightgown
It's the phone's ring
I think last night

You were driving circles around me
I think last night

You were driving circles around me
I think last night

You were driving circles around me


I CAN'T drink this coffee
TILL I PUT YOU in my closet
Let him SHOOT ME down
Let him CALL ME OFF
I take it from his whisper
You're not that tough

It's the blaze across my nightgown
It's the phone's ring

You were in my dream

You were driving circles around me
You were in my dream

You were driving circles around me
You were in my dream

You were driving circles around me
I think last night

You were driving circles around me
I think last night

You were driving circles around me . . .

quisiera poder decir mas

aaaaawwww
stoy enferma, ultimamente no me he sentido bien
pero el highlight fue el sabado xD
OMG!!! i dont wanna die & i dont wanna end up in a hospital
but im way too coward to get a blood test
xD
kiero ir a six flags
perdi el cargador d mi cel. asi q tengo cel apagado jaaa
tengo calor
y no m siento muy bien buuuu

I'm a free spirit.

G.I Joe: dudeeeeeee!!! i mean forget it the world is not a happy place, you can not change it in one day, the clouds are blue not pink, so deal with it, no ones going to love just because.

Max Steel : (she just gave me this sad look ill never forget)

Jackie Chan : yes, people can be pretty mean & it aint an easy for non of us.


So i spend wayyy to much time thinking about what i said & how disgusted i feel about what i said, fuck it thats not me talking. temporaly insanity !!! I really dont know what to say, so i'll leave it all to a quote :


"Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably,” “And never regret anything that made you smile"
Ruslana Korshunova

no soy ella, vero se ha ido, no se a donde.

no se a donde se fue
estaba aqui lo juro
estaba parada donde yo
creo que fue el viento
la deprime el viento
no se cuando regresara
si es que lo hace
pero lo que ha vivido quiere borrarlo
debe ser borrado
algo catarquico
espero le vaya bien
se le va a extrañar

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing
Jack Johnson,

well I was sitting, waiting, wishing you believed in superstitions, then maybe you'd see the signs
the Lord knows that this world is cruel, I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool learning lovin' somebody don't
make them
love you

must I always be waiting, waiting on you, I always be playing, playing your fool

I sang your songs, I danced your dance

maybe you've been through this before, but it's my first time so please ignore the next few lines cause
they're directed at you

I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

I keep playing your part, but it's not my scene want this plot to twist I've had enough mystery
Keep building it up, then shooting me down
But I'm already down

Just wait a minute .Just sitting, waiting

well, if I was in your position I'd put down all my ammunition I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long

but Lord knows that I'm not you & if I was, I wouldn't be so cruel, cause waitin' on love aint so easy to do

must I always be waiting, waiting on you
must I always be playing, playing your fool

No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you

I can't always be playing, playing your fool

napihsum <-----

I sat there
I was thinking about the weight on my shoulders
I had absolutely nothing on me
MY thoughts, jeans and some random shirt & tears
I remember the day you went away
Its was a rainy Sunday of July actually it was the 6th
I told you not to
You said that there was nothing I could do or say for you to stay with me in a loving way (I cried like crazy, I couldn’t picture my life without you, but you told me to figure it out) I so I gave up, for once I gave up, we were on & off and I know it was cause of me, cause I haunted you, cause I wanted you back & I had you back.
But this time was different , you were so rude & mean u were everything I ever hated in a guy u were all of those things u feel disgusted about so I step out. I said no more.
And since that day I’ve been dealing with loving me
I know it wasn’t me
I know that for sure
Now I love me
In my own weird way
But I love me
Thank you for rejecting me the way you did
Thank you for all those sharp words coming out of your mouth
Thank you for telling “I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE”
Thank you for the nice moments as well
Thank you for the intention of growing old next to me
Thank you for writing that nice song, that don’t matter for who you sing it for, you wrote that for me =)
But mostly thank you for helping me to find myself
Even if u were harsh
You were right
I have no intention of speak of you ever again
As a matter of I fact this is the first time I write about you since the day you left
And this will be the last.

Thank you. Your not worth a thing, but you thought me I do.

I need a lap top

this will be a so random post
cause i dont even have a point just that i need a laptop
and im broke
i have 0 pesos
its so depressive
my panams are dirty
my left eye is itchy
i miss my bf (thats if he is still my bf)
i hate cat power & her fuckin metal heart
its making me feel depressive in a massive way
i really dont hate her she has good gens i mean shes like 40 and she looks great
but back to the main point i NEED a laptop
i MUST have one.
its pathetic i mean
i use my aunts mac & i hate it, well i actually want one but OMG they're so expensive
i want the platinium one, but in another time of my life
by the time i just want somethin of my own
im blogging from work
sooo sad


but now im calm im listening to cat powers dont explain
OMG what a beautiful song

AAAAAaaand i really dont know what direction this blog might take
i mean like an hour ago i wrote something about delicate subject drugdealing
i cant have a blog about that
i cant have a blog with my writings , cause they tend to be so fuckin bizarre
and in the i end up being more fucked up

¿?

monito 1: por que eres tan depresiva?
monito 1 : tienes todo, y siempre te sientes asi
monito 2 (yo): por que no tengo lo q quiero, por que no tengo a quien quiero, por que todos se van
monito 1: .....


que facil respuesta, no ?

ninfa

si la ninfa me pudiera explicar lo que pasa .todo seria mas facil.
.sabria que decir. hacer. decir.
me sabia mágica, pero no lo creía
lo he escuchado varias veces
pero solo en un ocasión lo he creído
he vuelto a escribir
volví a sonreír
sonreír de verdad
no esa sonrisa a medias
no ese gesto forzado o ese intento de agradar
era una sonrisa
todo es mágico
tan mágico casi efímero
doy vueltas en la cama
me da vueltas la cabeza
y aterrizo a lo mismo
NADA
debo de pensar antes d hablar
debo pensar antes de juzgar
abandonare todo
seré yo de nuevo


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vp6aG7dIj1k